rants of a college girl

"what am I gonna take for college?" I thought back in junior high. I pondered for a bit then came to the conclusion that I still had a year to explore the possibilities. In senior high, I still havent decided, so I just checked courses that might be useful for me in the future but still I had nothing particularly like. I checked out accounting since it seemed like a stable job, though not insanely in demand like nurses but all companies need accountants and there are a lot of companies out there. I'm bound to get a job. Besides, how hard can it be? I thought to myself since I prided myself for getting a 98% grade in our basic accounting subjects in highschool. [brags]. Eventually, I got in the university I wanted and I found myself taking up a applied economics and accounting. Great! a double major course! I checked it out thinking, this must be great, like a 2 in 1 thing. I must be getting the better end of the deal...boy, was I in for a surprise!! A double major course meant, double the torture! The then easy peasy accounting turned into a nightmare from hell. The basic accounting subjects I took in high school were discussed in 2 weeks maximum and things got harder from there. Its like the noose tied around my neck became tighter and tighter and tighter that I soon was gasping for my breath. I could look into my future in this course and all I see is myself going insane, pulling my hair in frustration that I lost a single cent and couldnt balance the whole damn balance sheets and fricking income statements. Economics was the better end of the deal. It wasnt as demanding though it can get really tough. I felt like I could survive but its not really something I have the liking to.

I have thought of shifting to another course but the question I asked myself back in junior high came back to haunt me. I still havent decided what to take for college even if I am IN college already. Now, Im mastering in a field that is yet to be decided or I'm floating as some would call it. I have a knack for pyschology and philosophy [as i soon realized] and astronomy but nothing I seriously want to pursue. I mean, I don't wanna be a councilor or a shrink or a philosopher in the future, those are just my sidelines. Things that I am good at but I dont want a degree in it. I think the major problem that I have in choosing a course is that I honestly dont see myself working in an office as most people are expected to be, as an employee, in a routinary job that eventually becomes mechanical for me. I want something exciting and challenging. I love to travel the world and discover their cultures. But somehow a degree in tourism isnt as impressive. I want a job where I can shop, eat, travel and explore and get paid for it. Like this woman I saw on tv, her job is to buy things [money provided by the company] then she writes about it, if she likes it and stuff or one that travels the world and documents it or studies the people there..something like that..what course is that?..but reality check..there arent that many job opportunities like that.. those people who have jobs like that are extremely lucky besides, although the wonders of the galaxy enchants and mystifies me, there are a variety of courses offered but nothing in that direction...the closest you can get is to become a weather nut...no way!! I love to act on stage and sing but its not really a serious carreer to delve into.

The course Im seriously considering right now is business management. though its not really in my list of preferrence, its the closest I can get to a serious and stable job and at the same time it provides enough flexibility for me to be my own entreprenuer as they say. I can do business, I can go work in an office [if ever] or work for myself. I can pursue my interests and still have a business on the side. I just hope this is it..